Honestly FreeD

Nothing more enlightening than enlightenment.

Is that weird? Certainly felt like that typing it, but that’s exactly how I feel.

Over the last week I’ve had to ask myself questions, and while I would not have answers to them till most likely the end of this weekend, I have come to certain realizations on the form my life is taking with the current decisions I’m making, and whether or not I would like to continue on this path.

I pride myself, you see, of being self aware enough to make the right decisions. Maybe not always the right decisions in people’s eyes, but right decisions in the sense that I’m fully aware of the possibilities of my decision going south, and I’m also prepared for the consequences, if any.

The Ladies of Hive Community posed a valid question this week:

What are the top three values that guide your major life decisions and which value do you find the most challenging to practice consistently?

In no particular order, I’ll start by highlighting on Honesty. Honesty to myself is a big deal. I have a lot of mental questions that I ask myself routinely, and I call myself out when I need to without hesitation. “So, you’re very sure that this was the best way you could have handled this?” “On a scale of one to ten how good do you feel about what you just said, and if not, would you like to do things differently next time?”

These are a few of the questions I randomly ask, and I trust myself to be truthful to each and every one of these questions. Honesty guides me like no other when it comes to major life decisions, and I’m glad I've been able to cultivate this particular virtue when it comes to my life.

Second is Freedom. Freedom is a value I am happy to own, and I believe it goes hand in hand with trust. I trust in myself so much, it’s quite hard to explain. And because of this, freedom becomes easy because I am liberated enough to do things that I like and go on different paths, some unfamiliar, some merely exploratory, some with determination because I trust deeply in myself and in the Big Guy upstairs who’s proven time and again to have my best interests at heart. Freedom in mind and spirit, so whenever things don’t go my way, I understand fully that it was never meant for me, because I trusted in me, and did all I could.

And last is Discipline. Saved this one for last because I adore it, and in the same vein, also find it challenging. I’m a very laid back person. I wish the opposite were the case but even when it comes to my dreams, I don’t go after them with the singular, undiluted drive that most people would. I do what I can, take a lot of rests along the way, and fortunately, most of them have turned out in my favour, still.

But I don’t want that for me. I want to be more disciplined. Have it as my watchword. Stay true and steadfast to my goals and not give up when it gets challenging or procrastinate as I’m quite fond of doing.

Either way, I’m super glad to talk about this. Hive is my biggest accountability partner more than anything, so yeah, that’s Jhymi telling Tessa that she’d better improve and work on these values so that life gets better for her, isn’t that right?

Jhymi🖤

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