A MOMENT REALIZATION THAT BROKE MY TRUST.

There was a time that I came to a conclusion that it's better to know people from a distance, because the moment you get closer you tend to see a major character flaws, especially, when these people are your mentors, spiritual leaders, teachers, and even friends.
We are all human and we are not designed to be perfect, we are all created with flaws, but most times being distanced from people saves you the stress of seeing some traits.

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I have seen leaders with zero regard for people,leaders that practice classism and disrespect, but then nothing really gets me angry more than hypocrisy.
Why pretend to mislead others ?
Why paint yourself all righteous, like you are flawless ?
Why is the point of being dishonest?
Why preach what you aren't just to portray what you aren't?
I'm not here to judge,but to share an experience that affected my trust for people.

So it was our early years in school, we all decided to be active and regular in church, because that was how we were raised from home.
Trying to balance academic and church activities was quite difficult for most of us, but we were still trying our best to keep up.
I can remember, running to church from class and your colleges would start murmuring, but these are part of training, that we appreciate.

My first encounter in doubting my leader in church was when we were asked to fast 6am to 6pm, immediately I said I wasn't going to participate that long , that I would only fast from 6am to 12pm.
I can remember the meeting vividly, I was belittled like a weak Christian or baby Christian, but I insisted that it was my capacity and I wasn't going to do more.

During the second week of fasting, I went to clean the auditorium, assigned to the church by the school, we were cleaning, I was the one that took the key to some cleaning materials fro my leader that morning, and it was my obligation to return before going home. When I met her, she told me she was praying, even when we spoke on phone, she gave me an instruction to call when I'm at her lodge gate and she would send someone to pick it up from me.

We finished cleanup really early, so I walked to her lodge, without calling her.
I walked and opened her door l and I found her eating a pot of spaghetti, it was just 8:30am.
What made me angry was that she judge me for saying I wasn't going to run a 6am to 6pm fast, due to my health.

The reaction on her face when she saw me, asked me to go outside, and took the key from the window.
I just walked home quietly, because I didn't expect such dishonesty.
What really got me angry, was because I was lied to, but then I felt every information I heard from the back was true and this was the beginning of seeing and realizing that people can be two faced.
It was indeed a moment of realization that broke my trust.