Life And Reflection #Loh265

      Do you feel older or younger 
      for your age?

Don't even get me started about my day to day encounters at home and also outside my home.

I did not just hit the jackpot of feeling older at a certain level but also the jackpot of looking younger than my age.

Picture of me and my sister in 2021

Funfact "my behavior or the way I speak might be a giveaway to my age" most persons close to me even says I act like an older lady, I don't know if that's a compliment or an insult.

One person even said "since over 10 years that I have known you, you have never changed" am I an ancient of days?.

My recent birthday Picture 2025

But then this feeling hits me in different ways, most times I feel am behaving younger than my age, which is rare I most say.

Picture of myself during service 2022

I noticed I get the feeling of a little child for instance, if am being approached by a guy, I get that feeling of "am still young" but am not. Right now am 28 years old, never been in a relationship and still single.

I feel am still waiting for my glow up at my age, can you imagine and this makes me so angry.

Convocation book photo 2020

So right now I would say "yes and no" I feel both ways in different situations and encounter, for my age I feel younger when am having interactions with a guy of thesame age bracket, and I feel older when am having conversations with an older male, and to be clear, this goes both ways in my interactions with females too.

This is a question I really need answer to for myself, why does it feel that way, am I the only one feeling this way, is it a universal thing, or is it the way I was raised while growing up, because I feel either way am losing the chance to build up myself as a person.

   If you could get a second chance 
   at something, what would it be?

Life is full of mysteries, and at thesame time the decisions we make forms our tomorrow one way or the other.

This decisions will either make us have regrets in certain situations or make us happy at the end of the tunnel.

Why am I saying this? Me saying No to my mom on amputating her hand,when she asked me, has been a word of regret to me. I wished everyday if I could turn the hands of time, maybe things would have been different today.

Most time's I feel if I had said yes to that surgery maybe, just maybe she would still be alive now.

I'm definitely Saying yes to that surgery if given another chance, who knows how my life would have turned to be today.

If this second chance to life would have been better or not is something I won't know, what I definitely know is that I won't be motherless and most importantly, my siblings and i would not be an orphan.

All photos are mine

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