Loh #265 : Better than this

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If i could get a second chance at something what would be? This is the first question posed by the ladiesofhive community for this week.

If I would get a second chance at something, the first thing I would change is my name because the name given to me by my parents follows me where ever I go.
While growing up I was the first person to aquire a cell phone but my dad collected the phone and gave it to my brother. That was a phone i bought with my first salary and his reason was that who was i calling or who is going to call me rather than men? He then ended woth, You need to be patient.

I had been patient with all the odd treatment given to me all along but what made me to really wish for a name change happened when he was sharing his pension. My dad shared money to all the family members without remembering me.

He just promised that when he collects his housing allowance he will settle me , immediately the money came in my grandma passed on, so he had to use the money to prepare for the burial, which he buried her and he still used the same old phrase of You need to be patient on me again.

That one also came and went. When i got married my mum came to help me take care of my new baby but while she's with me, she will task me for foodstuffs and for money for certain things but when she goes to visit my brother and his wife's new baby she buys every kind of food stuff for them with her money and she will she will take it there. Whenever I hear about it, I feel so sad that I don't want to remember.

The second thing I would change if given a chance is my husband. I would choose a man who is straight forward and not full of lies. I wonder how many women cope with lying husbands.

While we were dating, he told me that he had only one child from his ex-girlfriend whereas he had five children already but he hid it from me until I was already married to him.

The painful part is that each school holiday period, he would allow them to come to our place even without prior warning and I dared not complain about it.

Presently, there is one living with me now and that girl is giving me headache a lot in my matrimonial home. She frustrates me at every time and I can't discipline her because my husband will scold me if I should discipline her.

All these and many more that i cannot share are really bothering my mental health but i am choosing to be at peace and keep myself for my children. But if I had a way to turn back time, I will do better than this.

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