If I could change one thing... #243

Overthinking

If there is one thing I could truly change about myself, it would be the habit of overthinking. It has followed me like a shadow, quietly affecting my peace, my confidence, and sometimes even my happiness. Many people don’t notice it on the outside, but deep inside, it’s something that troubles me a lot. It’s like my mind refuses to rest, even when I know something isn’t worth worrying about. And the worst part? I know I’m doing it, but I find it so hard to stop.

There are moments when I sit alone, replaying events that already happened, asking myself, Did I say the wrong thing? or Did I do something wrong? Even if it was a small conversation or a little action, my brain keeps going in circles, thinking of all the “what ifs.” Something someone else would forget in five minutes, I might carry it in my head for hours or even days.

Sometimes, overthinking turns into self-criticism. I might want to try something new or say somethings or Maybe express myself, but then that voice in my head tells me, What if you mess up? What if I'm not understood?
So, I end up keeping quiet, hiding how I really feel, and later regret not speaking up. This habit has made it hard for me to express myself freely, even when I know I have something important to say.

There are times I know clearly that something is not my fault. I know I shouldn’t be blaming myself. But still, I keep thinking, Maybe if I had done this or said that, the outcome would’ve been different. Even when I remind myself that some things are just meant to happen and cannot be changed, the thoughts still come back. it makes me even to imagine things too much, They keep me awake at night, thinking, overthinking, and imagining life

There are days when I just wish I could turn off all those extra thoughts. I want to live more freely, to be able to make choices without always feeling nervous. I want to trust myself more and stop thinking too far ahead. Life would feel so much lighter if I didn’t carry so many thoughts at once.

Overthinking, to me, is like a thief. It steals my peace, my joy, and my ability to enjoy the moment. It makes small problems feel ten times bigger. It creates fear where there should be courage, and it causes confusion even in clear situations. If I could change anything, it would be this, so I can finally think freely, speak confidently, and live peacefully.

Changing my overthinking habit would help me live a more relaxed and confident life. I want to stop carrying heavy thoughts that are not mine to carry. I want to be free, free to live without always worrying if I’m doing things right. And if I ever get the chance to change one thing about myself, this would definitely be it.